two weeks ago i felt like everything was all together
i felt inspired, rested, loved
now i feel like i'm going somewhere but i feel like
the people i want to take with me are falling off of the train
as it runs down the track

i love you and i
desperately need you to be there for me
like i am for you

two weeks ago you said you were feeling great and now
you say you don't feel anything when i tell you i love you
do you know how that hurts to hear? are you aware or
are you caught up in what you're caught up in?

i'm not mad
i'm not resentful
i know that you're struggling
and i don't want to add to that

but i need something too and
i don't know if it's too much to ask
or if i'm being selfish

i just feel ugly
and flabby and boring
and i want to run away from it all
and forget that
connecting with people feels good

i like being alone
i don't hurt me any
more than anyone else does

idk