Champion cannot be a real last name

Toss aside your inhibitions and

Fall in love

There's no time to

Think about it

or to not

To think of the time I need to wait
is to poison my own drink.
To think of the distance between us
is to lay my own bed with fleas.

It is a constant torture to know,
or to not
that perhaps we will never meet,
and I will no longer be distraught.

shitty attempt at trying to write like meg frampton

tastes like betrayal but
maybe it's the whiskey
babe i've gotten over that time

i send ya postcards
send ya flowers but
don't feel like a friend of mine

and i, i try
but there's so much more
on the other side

i don't know everything
but i know a lot
i got room in my heart
but in my brain i do not
don't go away from me now
now i thought i had you
thought i knew you
yea i thought you did too.

sailor moon

we held
hands
sunk in
the sands


sail away
sail, sail
wind, carry
sail, sail

set free
your soul
cut the anchor
you're whole

sail away
sail, sail
wind, carry
sail, sail

never planned
love
never speak
of

sail away
sail, sail
wind, carry
sail, sail

touch the
moon
don't forget
to tether your hot air balloon

sail away
sail, sail
wind, carry
my lover

to the moon

so i watched the documentary I Am

was recommended to me by someone over six months ago, kept putting it off

missed him today, so i watched it to distract me from my frustration

really good.

i'm trying to find the balance between my own happiness and helping others. i know that i need my own house in order before i can go out and really make a difference, but to what extent? i don't need to be rich or famous, i know that. but also, how do i change my mindset from that of a consumer to the mindset i seek, the mindset to be part of the whole picture rather than myself being the whole picture?

i plan on getting healthy (both physically and mentally), going organic, getting off of my medication (finally, plssss), educating myself, pursuing passions, and hopefully in the process i'll learn how to wean myself from the desire to consume more than i really need, while still fulfilling reasonable wants. i don't seek to sustain myself for the sole purpose of helping others, as it doesn't appeal to my mind right now, but i feel that if i get to a point where i'm able to limit my consumerist thought, that i may soon seek that. i do recognise that reward of helping others. i love gifting and doing kindnesses to those who need it, and i feel that if i put that positive energy out into the world, that it will be reciprocated at some point. even if it isn't, at least i had a positive impact on the world. helping others makes me very happy. i aim to do it much more.

Bon Iver is playing on the radio and

The roof of my mouth itches

So the room is really hot but

I'm still using the blanket

I really would like to talk to you, I'm 

Harboring a guilty infatuation

It's not right but

It's not really wrong

Don't let me let

You become another chapter in my life