what the fuck

like what the fuck

i don't want you anymore, but i want you in my life. and it's only because it's summer, because i'm nostalgic, because stupid ass reasons. i don't need you nor should i want you, but i can't help but remember what was lost because of you. and it makes me mad. i didn't deserve the pain and i don't deserve the stupid shit like this that seeing your name puts me through. i shouldn't have to worry about you.

how can you be so perfect on the surface, yet so wrong?
i don't understand.

listening to avril lavigne tonight has made me reflect a great deal on my life.

I never realized how much my interests and experiences have shaped and defined me as a person. I can't even write anymore...but I feel this way.